Witch,
After thinking and cooling down... I decided to give him and myself a chance... Haha... Now I felt so much better... Maybe is just a period of sadness ba... Haha...
My aunt is going overseas... She is going over to america to help her son's business over there... So sad... She is going for 6 months... I will miss her... But I felt sad for her.. She have 3 sons.. And 3 of them went to different place to work or migrated... Her first son migrated to Australia, second son went to china to set up a fashion business and the last son when over to america to study 3 years ago and now he is setting up a restaurant... So she have to fly here and there to look for her sons... Tommorrow monday again... Got to go to school.. I felt that now is getting more and more stressful... Got to work hard... Ganba-te...!!

Honey Boo| 3:22:00 PM

Witch,
Help... I think something is happening to me.. Dont from when.. I became very short tempered... Especially with studies... Then I will be angry with my boyfriend... Even those tiny winy things.. I felt bad... But dont know what is going on... I know he is suffering and so am I... I am having bad mood since the poly terms starts and it came bad to worst...
Is something bothering me? Is something going wrong in my body? Is something chemically changing in my body? Is the relationship between James and I became unstable? Is the feeling for him changed? Am I starting to get irritated by what he do to me? Am I just being sensitive? Am I getting so call "bored" with the relationship?
There is 101 questions in my mind... But there is one answer to all the questions... And it is "I DONT KNOW"...
To James: There is no hard feeling... Really... But just that I dont know what is happening in me... Dont be sad or anything.. I dont know how to put it in words so I wrote it in my blog... Sorry.. But I really have to say what am I feeling now... But please dont be sad or anything... I hope I will be fine soon... If not I will look out for "cures" to my "sickness" and also "answers" to my "questions"... Sorry to treat you so cold or treat you so bad these few days.. But I really dont know what is happening to me...

Honey Boo| 1:44:00 PM

Witch,
Again... Long long time never update my blog... Haha... Sorry sorry... Today is the second day of lesson... So sianz... All the teacher so LKK... The ES 2 teacher is like blind one lo... The teacher once take out the spectacle is like no eyes lo... And one more stupid... We have to go all the way to Block 39 to have our tutorial lesson... STUPID.... The distance is so damn far lo... The last block in Ngee Ann leh... Can you imagine...? Haha...
Sianz.. School network getting lousier and lousier... Everyday say network repair... Network renewal... But see no difference lo... Always connect and disconnect... Stupid... Haha... Today have to study until 8 o'clock sia... Take Japanese as third language...
Something sad happened... Sueann who is my best friend in Poly is not studying in my class anymore... So sad... She study in 1F01, 1F02 and 1F04 but not in my class 1F03... I am going to miss her... So sad so sad... And I also found one problem... I cannot click with my class girls compare to the guys... That's why I have to stick to my boyfriend and his friends... Dont know what is the problem... Maybe I am not approachable ba... I think I didnt talk to them exceeding 10 sentences and I notice that they look at me at a very weird way... Even I and Huiling take the same bus to school... We dont even talk in the bus... She preferred to talk to her friends... Without poly friends how can do project with them in the future if I have to do projects with them.... *Cannot imagine...* Hope I can improve the relationship with them... But... I dont have the topic in common with them... *Hmm....* I think I have to uphold my motto... "Let things go by it own course..."

Honey Boo| 10:45:00 AM

Witch,
Changes finally appear... I did a decision last night that I dont noe whether i will regret or not... However.. What is said is being said.. No point taking it back...
Last night... James and I are talking over the phone... But when we talked half way... His mother came in and he was forced to put down the phone and call me back later... This is not the first time... It is practically all the time...
From the start of the relationship... I know that his parents dont allow him to go for a relationship... But I think that as long he can listen to his parents and dont lose his balance between our relationship and his studies then is perfectly fine... However... I felt that I have already over taken his studies and he began to disobey his mother... There is more and more conflict between his mother... And this parents keep on reminding him... Saying that havent even know how to earn money then already have girlfriend... I know what his parents mean... They dont wish him to involve in relationship and concentrate in his studies...
So I took the first step to take a pause to the relationship... After he complete his studies and his NS then we be together again... *Haha...* That will be 5 years later... I know that it is not the best solution... However that is the best solution... 5 years is long I know... But lao gong... Have faith in me and have faith with yourself... I will always be your lao po.. And you will always be my lao gong... Just that put a stop to this relationship... So that your parents wont bother you and irritate you... This time I will be really firm.. I wont be soft-hearted... *I hope...* But remember.. No matter what I will always be with you... Please dont do anything silly... Ok? Is not that I will leave you forever... Now we are just putting down the status of "Boyfriend and Girlfriend" for 5 years.. Ok? Remember this also... *Everyday I love you...*

Honey Boo| 1:24:00 PM

Witch,
Today I really had a great time... *Haha...* Today my boyfriend and I had a early celebration for our 2nd month anniversary as on the actual day I need to work... Then... He planned to celebrate at East Coast Park... *Haha..* When we reached there... We went to the Coffee Bean to have a cup of coffee as I had my performance yesterday and I was quite tired... Then we went to the bicycle rental shop to rent for 2 bicycles...
At first.. We planned to go the end of the East Coast Park (which is near to carpark A)... However... I was to lazy that we turned back after quite a distant away from the rental shop.. After that.. We cycled to Bedok Jetty.. And we went there to enjoy the sea breeze for a while.. From there.. We discovered there is a spot with some shade... We decided to camp there... I remember that spot is at cliff 17 (so call)... *Haha..* Then we picked a lot of sea shells along there... From cliff 17.. We walked until cliff 18 and took some pictures and walk back... We really had a great time together... *Haha..*
After that... We went to a place where it really turn my life upside down... The place that reminded me the saddest period of my life... Today I went there... And tell myself to put down all the unhappy stuff and move on... *Good Bye to my past... Happiness Aheads...*
However.. Happy times didnt last... It started to rain... Luckily.. We noticed that early and left... If not we will be drench.. We returned the bicycle... And went to Marine Parade... We had our dinner together and after that he went to buy a present for me... *Haha...* So happy...
I will always remember this memorable day... Lao gong... *Hehe...* Thank you for giving me all these... Love You... Muacks...

Honey Boo| 10:21:00 PM

Witch,
Today is quite a bad day for me... Today was my first time really shed tears in front of my boyfriend... Today he went out with his god-sister, Jing En to play badminton in the morning... I didn't join them as I need more sleep to concentrate in the night to have rehearsal for my sunday performance at Toa Payoh CC... So I suggested to meet them at Jurong Point at 2 as i have tution with my cousin there...
In the end we really met each other... And suddenly Jing En say that Prisilla, who is my boyfriend ex-girlfriend, wants to join us for lunch... I felt so sad as I ever told him before... And I state my stand very clearly that I don't want to meet her... Not because of I jealous... Is just that I dont feel comfortable seeing her...
In the end.. When she came... I gave a reason and left the food court and went to MacDonald... When he came to look for me after a while.. I was so angry and sad that he didn't respect my decision that I made before... I didn't talk to him... I even push him away when he tried to hold my hand and hug me.. Breaking up even went across my mind...
I was so sad that I really took out the ring he gave me and gave it back to him... From then he said about the happy things that happened between us... The hardship that we went though before our relationship...I was so sad that I cried... Really cried...
In the end.. I forgive him as I really don't want to lose him... And it's only a small matter... Sorry.. Lao gong... Sorry for being so childish.. Sorry to flared up at such a small thing... Sorry and sorry.. I love you... I really do love you... Muacks..

Honey Boo| 12:06:00 AM

Witch,
Haha... Let me do a two day update... Yesterday... I went to meet my friends to have a gathering at Toa Payoh... Liping, my secondary best friend wanted to dye her hair at the saloon... That's why we went there... Haha... But I scared that I will be bored so I ask my boyfriend along... After she is done with her hair... We went to meet my another friend, Dennis.... We really had a good time going out together...
Today we went to sing Kbox again... Haha... Cause my cousin cancelled the tution as he have some counsiling going on... Haha... We had a fun time together at Kbox... Especially when I correct his Chinese while he is singing and some of my cute sign language that I created during my secondary school days... Haha...
Love you a lot lao gong... Muacks...

Honey Boo| 8:23:00 PM